Waiting for the Speeding Freight Train to Hit

I am suddenly on the down slope of waiting for the summer.

Waiting is a funny thing- you think that you will be waiting forever, and then suddenly you look up and the thing you were waiting for is suddenly so close and you have no time. Right after the panic attack is finishing, you realize you actually have a little bit more time to wait, and the next thing you know, the thing you were waiting for has passed.

I finished EMT school at the beginning of May, and the 12 hours I thought I might get back a week, have never really returned. My house seriously looks like a disaster area- FEMA has stopped by twice actually. It doesn't help that I don't really have furniture right now- I have sold most of it so I don't have to ship it to Iowa. I will still have to ship some of it, but I am hoping to fit it all into a tag along or a small U-haul. Still lots of work left before I move though- I am in the awkward state where you should start packing, but if you can pack it you don't need it and should get rid of it, so everything is just waiting to be packed...

So, for now, I am waiting. I can see the freight train barreling down towards me, but I am still far enough away to think I have time before it gets to me. That's the thing about trains though- they come up faster on you than you thought they were*. I have all this fun for summer, and then I am hoping to have enough momentum to get through my first semester of medical school. I have a little more than a month before I am in Europe and need to have everything done. I can't believe how much I need to do, and how much I still need to wait to do.

I have definitely learned something in my life from this. Life is about waiting. I work in a waiting room, where people's lives change (or don't) in the space of hours, but those hours seem like days to the people waiting. But the time that isn't spent waiting, flies by without waiting for you to catch it. Waiting makes things feel like they last forever, but the not waiting, never waits. There is meaning in that, but you have to wait to find it. ;p


*True fact- people are used to judging distance and speed based on cars- the narrowness of the train tracks tricks people into thinking the train is farther away than it really is- so they try to outrun the train and fail